Last Day of the Month

Signing in...

I hate the last day of the month. There's a million things that I have to check and double-check on before midnight hits... did I pay my bills? Did I make my deposit into my savings account? Did I apply for all the scholarships I could? Are there are other things I'm forgetting? The last day of the month is almost never an enjoyable day... but more of just a stressful one... and so I can't wait for midnight.

I'm a have-no-regrets kind of person. If I for instance didn't get something done this month that I was suppose to, once midnight hits, it doesn't matter. Sure, I'll be disappointed with myself. Sure I'll make sure to try to learn from it. But what is passed is past. No sense in brooding over it. Rather, I'm free again to be me... the guy who just likes to "go with the flow".

I feel like I've done a really good job of getting a number of things accomplished these past few days while at the same time keeping my stress levels down. (I can't stand stress. It becomes more than just a mental problem for me.) Still, today just feels overwhelming, even though I don't feel like there really is much else for me to get done. So I just want it to be over.

Over the past couple months, in tune with that "go with the flow" thought process, I've started to appreciate each moment and each day... rather than wistfully think of the future or ache for the past. As a result (and do to several other factors), I've become a much happier person over as of late. That being said, I still can't wait for midnight.

I'm good at being a hypocrite to my beliefs.

So how about you guys? Is the end of the month always stressful for you too? Is it a different day? For that matter, do you go with the flow like I do or are you more a scheduled kind of person? Well, anyway, thanks for reading. =)

P.S. I hope you like/don't mind the minor changes to the blog.

...signing out.